In every possible way, Brooklyn was loud. Crazy and amazing loud, coming from every direction—smells, sounds, sights—so that in any given moment my intake of breath was chock full of just so much. It created a constant humming within me. I felt awake. I felt bursting with inspiration and ideas. I felt alive.
I was working as a teaching artist at the time, so I spent most of my days with elementary school children, in their classrooms, creating poems and plays and murals with them. I was also a playwright, so when I wasn’t working, I was writing a new play, or in rehearsals for a play I had already written.
For a while, I was productive in both places. I was able to nurture and gently guide my students and generate ideas and pages for my plays.
But then it all sort of stopped. I was tired. I couldn’t move. I couldn’t think. I couldn’t speak. And what I felt most of all was this awesome sense of cacophony. Every cell in my body was humming so loudly I couldn’t find myself anymore.
And now, all these years later, I am wondering if the reason I lost myself was because I had lost my landscape of quiet. That still and silent place from within which I could be creative and wild and loud.
I still adore Brooklyn. (In fact, I haven’t been back in two years and I am seriously jonesing for a visit!) But I am curious. How do the people who live there find the quiet they need? And in particular, how do the writers find that quiet?
What is the landscape of quiet for you?
Tam Smith
This is such a lovely post. I'm going to find some quiet time to think about it some more...
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